There comes a time when one is weary; weary of the waiting, going, sitting, poking, sticking, pain, interrupted sleep and even the healing process. You are just ready to be done. Healed. No pain. Home. Sleep. Good homecooked food. Working and seeing at it all in the rear-view mirror. I am as ready to be done as Gene is. It is at this point where discouragement nudges its way in, impatience strangles the mind and weariness saps the strength.
This morning I thought of the verse, “Those that wait on the Lord, will renew their strength. They will mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary” (Isaiah 40:31). There is that “don’t want to think about word” wait. The promise that if we wait on the Lord, his timing, his mighty power, our strength will be renewed, we can soar emotionally as an eagle and the stamina to exert energy will come. This is my prayer for today.
One of the things I did when we got to rehab was put up cards on the wall in his room to help him keep track of the days. They had given us a projected stay of 14 days in rehab. We are now at day 9.
By the time this is over it will be a month of hospital and rehab. It is hard for a patient to figure out what day of the month it is much less the day of the week. Each morning we take down the previous day. The end is in sight (hopefully) and we are having to endure. Wait. Wait. Wait. Wait. I remember a children’s story about Thomas, the little train that was chuggin up a mountain, and the going got tough…..I think I can, I think I can…… Lord give us the grace to endure and chug this mountain. I think we can, I think we can, I know we will.
Kru Heller Said:
on June 16, 2024 at 12:47 pm
Dear Pat,
I’ve followed this ordeal you have been through since Memorial Day. I admire your strength and the depth of your character. I was impressed with your intellect as you tried to follow the medical clues in an effort to relieve Gene’s suffering. Your patience in dealing with the craziness of the vortex I call “medical world” was remarkable. Gene is a fortunate man indeed to have such a capable, competent partner in life. In my view you saved his life at least several times.
Kru
Pat Said:
on June 16, 2024 at 12:49 pm
Thanks Kru. You have need through it yourself. How are you doing?
Marsh Newlon Said:
on June 16, 2024 at 4:22 pm
As an RN, I nursed mostly men during my time. It’s harder for a man to be ill. He identifies with strength, ability, and youth. He wants to be able to do what he’s always done. My father…at 72 and legally blind…threw his glasses up on the dashboard as he readied to drive the car. I questioned the action, and he said “ I can’t wear those things. If I was needed to fly during a war, I couldn’t!” I could not tell him that at 72 he probably would not be called.
Physical injuries such as Gene’s are so hurtful and do require a lot of patience, but as he achieves success and regains his strength, he will dedicate himself to the task and then stand back and watch him go! Then it will be, “slow down! You are doing too much”.
BaronVonReed Said:
on June 17, 2024 at 11:01 am
I think you can. I think you can. I think you can.
You’ve been in my thoughts. Here’s hoping that when the last post-it comes down, he gets to go home!